You are God

You shine like fire in my darkest days
You give me reason to sing Your praise
You love me like I cannot know
You are God
Good beyond all measures known

When heartache strokes my soul so near
You call me to live without fear
Because I'm still worth something
In your eyes
You have the greatest for me still in surprise

Your workings I cannot comprehend
But you ask that I should let go- then
I will be free to let you make me soar
Forever in your arms so warm

I trust in you
With hope to mend
This battered world
I've put myself in
I give to you all that I am
Because you gave
All that I have

Little Bird

Little bird

You never care

What you’ll do

Or what you’ll wear

But everyday

You fly so free

You sing so proud

And joyously

So maybe if

I let it go

Into the heavens

I will soar

Thanksgiving

I am thankful for God above

Who, when I fall,

Still always loves

He listens hard

And whispers soft

He guides me well

And lets me walk

He has provided all

That I’ll ever need

And given more

Than enough to me

I am thankful for a family dear

Who have encouraged me

Throughout the years

They make me laugh

And lift me high

They have given me

The best of times

I am thankful for this life to live

Through the best

And the worst

It is always

A gift

And even on the darkest days

I still have much to sing

In praise

For breath

For light

For stars

And moon

For warmth

A heart

And even a roof

For creation

And all

That it entails

For a future

Much brighter

Than dreams can tell

With all I have

And all I am

I say thank you

To God

My family

My friends

(11/24/2011)

Flight

Flutter, flutter
Feathers stutter
As I take sight
Of glorious flight

The Flight of the Butterfly

Chaotic flaps
They dip and dab
So to and fro
From little to more

Up and down
Turned all around
So wild and free
But beautifully

The path you take
Never equates
But you're always found
Where you do abound

Sunset

Oh Sunset!
Take me where you go
To a distant, western shore
Where your light sets nevermore
And all is well

Let me be
Forever free
In your radiance
made by the divine
And where time
Slowly fades
In time

Today

Today
the sun shone a bit brighter
I let myself be
Myself
I laughed
I smiled
Even though trouble came.
I was a friend
I said hello to someone
I'd never met.
Today I expressed
Received a compliment or two
I did not regress
To be less than I could choose.
Today
Was a good day

(12/2/11)

Dear One

Dear one,
With heart so precious
To unfold
Don't be afraid-
To live
To love
Open wide your wings!
Better to soar for a second
Than to never fly at all
Beauty kept inside
Is no beauty at all

Take the chance
That so few risk
To show what's really there-
To live without a care
Trust in the morning – new -
Of love so true
Open up and let it shine
Beautiful for all mankind
For when we are exposed and afraid
We live life to its fullest name

And when you leap so full of faith
Your eyes will open to the grace
Of life so true-
It belongs to you

Everyday's End

And now we come to everyday’s end-

When light fades to colors dim.

Light’s creatures lay with one last sigh

As evening sounds sing lullabies

I sit and watch the sunset near

I listen to the crickets cheer

I watch the lightning bugs dance along,

To mimic the stars that appear above

And in this glorious moment told

I think upon my day now old,

And wonder at the decisions made

And if my mark was Godly made

Do others think me higher now?

Did I give so others could abound?

Did I listen with my full intent?

Did I think with thoughts purely kept?

And most importantly of all-

Did I glorify God with my everyday’s all?

Did I obediently cause my will to bend?

So that I may praise Him

At everyday’s end

(September 2011)

Limbo

Life is strangely out of place

I move through air

And empty space

Searching for a path

Now gone

Wondering where

It all went wrong

I have a faith

I have a hope

But is the future

One that I know?

Or am I in for a surprise

Wondering where my journey lies

I trust

But know not where to go

All I can do

Is push

Through the unknown

(12/6/2011)

Redemption

And whereupon a distant shore,

I called to You and heard no more.

No more the sound of love so sweet

No more the guidance You provided me

And there upon that lonely shore

I tried to make a home once more,

But without the light that truth provides

The world grew dim before my eyes

I settled back to savage ways

To fill the lust and feed the craze.

I reasoned without truth to show

That I deserved what I didn’t own

The peril of my heart grew dim

To a conscious that was flimsy thin,

And as the beach grew ever cold

My evil thoughts became ever bold

With little purpose I lived my life

I longed for something, but found no respite.

I lost all that was dear to me,

And ran into the raging sea

“I cannot save my soul!” I said

“The things I love are gone and dead,

Empty is the life I live!

Now take me God to my due death”

But suddenly the waves were quite

The currents stopped, and I was silent

And then a whisper on the seaborne wind

Came softly to my ears soaked in

“Do you know I love you son?

Do you know my heart is undone?

Do you know I’ve seen you there?

Sitting on the beach of your despair?”

“I’ve wanted you back since the day you left

To hold you close as you would let

And give you hope of things to come

That love’s death is not permanent- since I have won”

“I see your heart so broken now

Will you give it to me- in place of your broken vow?

I’ll give it back even better than new

I made it, you see, as I made you”

“Yes!” I replied with tear filled eyes,

And there appeared to my surprise

A boat more beautiful than words can tell.

I climbed aboard as the wind blew well

It took me towards a sunrise new

Over waters that were perfect blue,

And as I kissed the world goodbye

I had no tears upon my eyes

The Wall

There is a wall which separates you and I-

I know not quit how to pierce it.

It is ever present betwixt us two,

And it seems to keep me from really knowing you.

And so, there it is.

Its thickness varies with the time

But when I think I should be able to climb;

Fate’s gravity does so ever incline

To push me back down.

Sometimes the wall seems paper thin

My hand pushes to break the boundary then,

But awkwardly should I come stumbling through

To make you take flight, for fear of pursuit.

I know not what the key should be

To break this wall into debris

But whether by persistence, or persistence’s key

I will find a way to join me to thee


(September 4, 2011)

Anguish

Oh, anguish of my soul so near

The death of love so burning clear

My heart knows not when winters end

Shall be found.

Love lost leaves empty the chambers of my heart

The sound of hollowness - empty - resounds.

Dear God in heaven above,

Lord of my heart,

Turn not from my plight.

Oh that joy would touch my soul

That hollow rooms would become full

That love would find destiny in my heart

That it would play a beautiful part


(August 2011)

Lightning

Lightning strikes from high above-
It fills the heart with awe,
And love.
For so small and powerless
man does seem
Compared to The power
Of God's mighty beams


(September 19, 2011)

Window Frame

Sitting silent,
Dark and quite.
The Windowsill lit
By moon's soft kiss

Her figure
Like beautiful
With passion
Unbreakable
The depth,
It is tangible
And longing
So visible

Her Soul
Reaching out
Her spirit devout-
Our time's running down


(November 12, 2011)

Eternity

And now I see the other side

Of love lost

And taken all my pride.

The ground still moist

With my starlit tears,

I try not to think

Of all the wasted years

Sometimes it feels like old times again

Your pictures make me smile within.

But then the tear of parting words

Drags up the pain of blackened burns.

And now in darkness,

In the cold of night,

Your pictures add to my deepest plight.

Will these feeling ever fade?

Will my heart become jaded

With this passing age?

Will true love ever find this broken heart?

Will the darkness end

With mornings glorious spark?

And now I know this too will pass

That God above will forgive our past

And as I journey beneath the heaven’s glow

A star will find me, and I shall know

That love is out there

Spring comes anew

The garden may wilt

But is refreshed by dew

The lost son may return

To heaven’s glee

And my heart’s love will be found,

In eternity


(August 2011)

The Importance of the Present

And its time to let go
Of all the things I did know
Because where in the world did the leave me
But a place so lost and needy

And I'm sorry to let you know
That I am shaking from head to toe
Because all the world, it seems a bit brighter
When I let my flame grow higher

For every moment I'm awake
Every night I dream up late
All the seconds, the clock ticks on
Every sunset of every dawn
-Means the future is near-
And the past is gone

So I move on

And its time to look ahead
Looking forward to things unsaid
Because where in the world will they lead me
When I trust in Him so deeply

And I hope they quickly lead
To a place where I am free
Because the world, it seems a bit brighter
When our flame grows ever higher

For every day that passes by
Every starlit, nighttime sky
All the time I have right here
Every hour lived without fear
Means I'm drawing ever near
To a future bright and clear

So I press on

(November 2011)

The Beginning

I step into a bold, new world
So scared and timid inside.
I reach out to touch the stars so near,
Hoping not to fall into the divide

Greater works call from on high
They ask me to leap, that I may fly
And soar beyond all that I dream-
I have but to break my fear with faith

(Poem Written: November 4, 2011)

And so begins a journey.
     I have recently begun to renew my interest in writing. But due to time constraints in the rigors of earning a degree in science, I have found poetry to be a useful writing tool in releasing built up thoughts and emotions. The quick fluidity and power attained by poetic verse also allows a "snapshot" to be taken of a current thought or emotion being felt at that present time in life. These snapshots trace a journey through the seasons of one's life.
     My current season is one of transition. As I leave behind the things of the past, regrets still haunt me, and the decisions made still echo in my mind. But I also have the opportunity to shape my future. A period of transition is one which allows for the most molding of character and beliefs, and many "mini-seasons" occur as the past clashes with the future. The poems which follow show the journey of my mind through this period of my life.
     I will also attempt to include poetry from previous periods of my life, and date as many of my entries as possible. I do not promise that they will be in order, but that will be part of the fun :)
Enjoy!